I'm having a very hard time keeping my spirits up this morning, but I am really trying.
I don't think I have ever had a night as bad as last night except when I've forgotten my evening meds. (And I didn't. I checked twice.) I slept in short little jerks, with awful dreams. Being sick, a failure, embarrassed - I don't even know what brought them on. Having my home broken into, knowing something was wrong with Greg (my ex husband) but not able to contact him... just nasty stuff. I know I half sleep walked and that I ate during the night, but I'm not sure what or how much.
The best part about this morning was waking up and discovering that nothing in those terrible dreams was true. The weather couldn't be much nastier - rain and 35°, with such heavy overcast it looks like twilight. And the cat (Fae) threw up several places this morning, including on one of the shelves where my Discworld collection resides. Luckily, nothing was damaged, and I don't think she's actually sick - she just ate too fast.
I'm about two hours behind in my daily routine, which should mean skipping my morning nap. But I think I'm going to have to sleep before I can think straight about luggage and packing for Illinois. I have a hair appointment at 1:30. I wish I could cancel it, so I would have more time to sleep, but this is the last time I will have to get it done before I leave for Illinois on Monday.
On the positive side, Van Halen, with David Lee Roth, is going to be performing in town on May 5th. You would have had to have known me in the 80s to understand how happy that makes me. Also, Nickelback will be here on June 23. Kathy and I already have plans to attend. Our hope is that we can both go in for tattoos that day as well.
I definitely want a second tattoo, but I'm at a real loss as to what and where. I want something that symbolizes "It's love that makes a family." A heart with family isn't enough - the point is that you don't need to be physically related to be family. I really like the idea of a tattoo around my ankle, but there certainly isn't room to write that whole phrase.
I need to put a load of laundry in the dryer and clean my teeth, and then I really am going back to bed.