This is the Way I Live (on IJ)

There is a very fine line between "hobby" and "mental illness." - Dave Barry

October 13th, 2011

Thursday again already @ 08:41 am

Current Mood: busy

31 minutes on the Wii Fit Plus yesterday for 104 calories. I didn't keep track of calories consumed, although I was careful. It's impossible to stay on the Nutrisystem diet when you're out of vegetables and almost out of fruit. Fortunately, Faeon is coming over today so we can do a big shopping trip.

"Hogwarts is our home" is trending on Twitter. I think that's pretty cool.

Today I will get chores done. I must get chores done. *sigh*

October 4th, 2011

Conventions - I would love to have your opinions @ 09:19 pm

Current Mood: confused

Ascendio: Does someone want to argue that I should not go to Ascendio, the Harry Potter Convention in Orlando in July, or that I shouldn't buy a Merlin's Circle membership that will get me into all the ticketed events? Including the evening at 'The Wizarding World of Harry Potter' at Universal Studios when we get to play after the park is closed to the public!? The membership price is very expensive, the hotel price is exorbitant, and I'd have to fly diagonally across the country. And I think I have myself convinced that it's worth it and that I'm going to go.

Lubricus: Well, I don't really need input on that one. Are you kidding? A Harry Potter slash convention about an hour's drive from here? I've already got my membership.

The Discworld Convention: I need someone to tell me that I really should go. I've gone to the past five and always had an incredible time. I already have my membership and my hotel reservation. But Jinxster, Elfie, Archer, and Esther will not be there this year, and since the biggest appeal of The Discworld Convention is seeing people I only get to see every two years, I'm really bummed about that. The trip is obviously very expensive for me since I have to travel overseas. Sooo, as heretical as it sounds, I'm considering not going. Never thought I'd say that.

If I'm willing to spend the money, I could go to both Ascendio and the Discworld Convention. But am I sure I want to? I hate making big decisions like this. It's hard enough for me to decide what to have for breakfast in the morning.

September 15th, 2011

Lubricus! @ 09:56 am

Current Mood: ecstatic

With a single comment, Alisanne has convinced me to go to LUBRICUS 2012. I couldn't have gone this year even if I had known about it, due to many other responsibilities, but I have it down on my calendar for August 16 - 19, 2012. It's a relatively small Harry Potter slash convention held in Renton, Washington, which is an hour's drive for me. I've already put in an application for my reservation!

Ascendio 2012 @ 07:21 am

Current Mood: excited

I've asked this before, but who is considering going to Ascendio 2012? Financially I know it would be unreasonable for me, but I can't get the idea out of my mind. It just sounds so terrific, and the idea that I might get together with other Snape slash fans is incredibly tempting. I've been wanting to get down to Orlando for ages anyway, as I moved from there 14 years ago and have never been back. Somebody convince me I should go even if I can't really afford it. It's only money, and experiences like this don't come along all the time.

September 13th, 2011

Diet report and BRL @ 09:21 am

Current Mood: anxious

I stayed strictly on the Nutrisystem diet yesterday but still ate 1290 calories. On average Nutrisystem is supposed to keep one under 1200 calories per day, but it really depends on the choices you make.

I tried exercising, and was shocked and frightened by how little I was able to do, especially considering what I was able to do easily a year ago. My goal was to do ten minutes of yoga and 20 minutes of aerobics on the Wii Fit, but after only ten minutes of aerobics I had to finish the last ten minutes with yoga. It wasn't that my heart rate was high or that I was breathing hard, but I felt so tired I could collapse and my calf muscles especially really hurt. I think I will try to add in some strength training today.

I bought a couple Harry Potter calendars today, one for the wall plus a single page desk calendar. Couldn't find exactly what I wanted, which is nice big squares to write appointments in on the wall calendar, but that's okay, because I already have a Discworld calendar for 2012 that will work for that.

I finally started a new book yesterday: The Broken Kingdoms by J.K. Jemisin, the sequal to One Hundred Thousand Kingdoms. The first book was a Hugo nominee this year. I had a really hard time choosing what to read next, as there are about seven books on my Kindle that I'm equally anxious to start.

Still working on paperwork for my mother's estate. There is an affidavit I have to get in before the end of the month to save about $1,000 on her property taxes. And the termination of the Trust seems to be going nowhere, which is really disturbing. The money from mom's life insurance is going to only last me so long, especially considering the expenditures I had to make to get the house ready to go on the market. And considering the current housing market, it may be months yet before it sells.

I was supposed to have a text conversation on Skype this morning with Elfie, but either she isn't there yet or I don't know how to work the stupid program. I can only do text conversations on Skype, not voice or video, but if anyone else would like to meet with me there, my contact name is QLBecky.

July 15th, 2011

A few hours after seeing The Movie @ 09:48 pm

Current Mood: indescribable

Want to go see it again. Now.

Never cried so much over any movie, not even Truly, Madly, Deeply.

Do not have the feeling of loss that I dreaded would come from knowing I will never see another Harry Potter movie for the first time. This movie was so fine, so complete, so fulfilling... It is enough. Perfect.

Not sure I've ever seen a book translated into a movie so well. Except that the movie was so hella better than the book.

Do not seem to be cried out yet.

Most of all, am grateful for everything Harry Potter has given me over the past eleven years. The excitement and love and laughter and tears and, by far the most important, the friendships. The feelings of comradely. The joy and understanding and sharing. All the fanfic I have read, and all that I know will continue to be written in the future.

Am obviously not very coherent. Dead drunk without touching a drop of alcohol.

May 13th, 2011

Ascendio @ 11:54 am

Current Mood: curious

I just got an email from Ascendio 2012, which is apparently going to be a smaller version of last year's Infinitus. I remember being wistful because Infinitus was out of the question for me, so my interest is a bit peaked. Are there any other HP fans out there who either went to Infinitus or are considering Ascendio?

April 23rd, 2011

Meanderings of a drunk fanfic writer. @ 07:58 pm

Current Mood: drunk

The coolest thing ever, ever, ever happened to me at Norwescon today.

Okay, first I should explain that I am drunk. I am more drunk than I have been in many years. And I have enough alcohol at home that I can hope to maintain this state for some hours to come.

Now back to Norwescon - I met [info]pir8fancier! Okay, I exaggerate, I didn't actually meet her, but I saw her on a panel about going from fanfiction writing to - uh - real writing, like being published. She is so cool. She was only going under her pen name. In real life she writes mysteries and gets paid for it. And she was doing that BEFORE she discovered fanfic, of which she has written TONS (as probably a lot of you know). So it would really be professional suicide for her publishers to know she writes fanfic. Including slash porn and even including Snarry (which is only not my OTP because Snupin is).

Anyway, I really loved the panel. They talked about following the rules of the originating author (which for J.K. Rowling is no underage sex), and about not taking criticism personally and about the best comments are not the ones that say "SQUEEEE!!!" but the ones that offer constructive criticism that helps one become a better writer. And about deciding whether or not you actually agree with the criticism. And that old adage, if you want to write a book, the first thing you have to do is to Start Writing!

(Time out while I make another drink of Kahlua, Baileys, vodka, cream, and coke.)

Like I said, Start Writing. Now, the focal point of the panel was how to make the jump from writing fanfic to being a published author (and especially, what not to do). But I don't want to write original fiction. Never, ever had the urge, though I've been writing fanfic since I was in grade school. But I stopped, pretty much, putting fanfic up on line in 2003. Do I want to go back to writing? Hell yes I do! But I've always been too terrified.

The first piece of fanfiction I put on line was My Brother's Keeper, a Discworld gen fic. I did not plot the thing out ahead of time, at all. I just wrote what came into my head at the time. I didn't know what was going to happen much before the readers did. But somehow it all came together as a story, and I received a wild amount of praise about it. I still get comments today on

The next thing I wrote was Discworld slash, Vimes/Vetinari: Aftermath. It was also super easy to write, and, in the audience of people who like those things, also got a lot of high praise. I wrote a short sequel called In This Room which I am satisfied with, although it didn't get much circulation because by that time had passed their policy of no NC-17 fics and my relationship with them had ended bitterly.

I knew when I finished My Brother's Keeper that there could be a sequel, and I started it, but then I ran into two major problems: First, I was absolutely terrified it wouldn't meet the standard everyone had already set for me. Second, the story knew exactly where it was going, and I Did Not Like It. I didn't want Vimes to commit adultery. It honestly sent me into a period of depression. But when I tried to change the storyline, I was either not being true to the characters as I see them or I was introducing a deus ex machina. In the end I didn't finish it (which is the second most important thing to do if you want to write), and in fact that was more or less the end of my fanfic writing days, though I am a rabid reader.

Honestly, the thing most responsible for switching me from Discworld fanfic to Harry Potter was the plethora of HP slash and my unrequited lust for Alan Rickman's Snape. When it comes to the original works, I don't think J.K. Rowling can hold a candle to Terry Pratchett. But I fell hard for the work of several Snarry and Snupin writers.

Which leads me inevitably to "why I'm not writing HP fanfiction." Good question. I've sort of tried, if posting two chapters in my own not-particularly-highly-read LJ counts. It's not that I don't have an entire story in my head. I'm just scared. There are so many HP fanfic writers out there that are So Much Better than I will ever be. Also, it's not a short story. It's rather longish, as these things go, and I'm scared that if I start I won't finish it. The answer, in short, is I'm a coward.

This isn't an announcement that I'm going to start writing Snupin fics, although I just might. It's just I've got all this drunken happiness in me right now, and let's face it, I've been pretty short on happiness as of late. Like, I think the last really great thing that I experienced was meeting people when I went to see Alan Rickman on stage in New York.

Anyway, now that I have gotten all of that out of my system, I'm going to go read This Boy's Life.

October 29th, 2010

All grown up. @ 06:39 am

Current Mood: amused

Tom Felton today, finally allowed to get a tan and get rid of the bright white hair:


August 13th, 2010

Deathly Hallows - PLEASE end my suspense! - SPOILER @ 08:54 am

Current Mood: worried

This article tells where the break is going to be between the two parts of the Deathy Hallows movie. Someone please tell me - Does this mean that Snape dies in the first part, or will he be in the last film?

May 1st, 2010

Attention HP fans and slashers @ 01:44 pm

Current Mood: excited

[info]littleblackbow is, like many of us, mourning her inability to attend Infinitus, and is exploring the idea of a smallish informal get-together of Harry Potter fans later this year to make up for it. A weekend to meet and talk, share artwork and fics, and just generally have fun together. She would like to aim for "someplace sunny," perhaps the first weekend in November.

If you have any interest in this HP reunion (I certainly do), please comment to this post .

January 8th, 2010

Emma Watson in Burberry Ads @ 09:00 am

Current Mood: blank


I want to meet your hair stylist.

And I think it's kinda icky to pose like that with your brother.

December 11th, 2009

From "The Things They Say" @ 07:25 am

Current Mood: amused

I have very little interest in either RPS or Harry/Draco (unless it's in a trio with Snape). But I couldn't resist noting this quote: (The italics are mine.)
"I read that the other day, and I was like, 'What the hell is that about?' I haven't seen Dan walking around naked, not on the set anyway. The changing room is a different thing - I'm joking. No, I hadn't heard anything of it. Dan hasn't mentioned it." HARRY POTTER star TOM FELTON was baffled by rumours of raunchy naked scenes in the upcoming wizard movie - insisting his co-star DANIEL RADCLIFFE does not strip off onscreen.

October 5th, 2009

Not something I wanted to learn @ 06:50 am

Current Mood: distressed

Here's another case of me being totally out of the loop. I had absolutely no idea that Maggie Smith had breast cancer and was undergoing chemotherapy while filming Half Blood Prince. Although the article sounds as though she has lost some confidence in her ability to work, you have to admire the strength and determination she showed.

The phrase that she was "diagnosed last year but recovered" kinda makes me wince.

July 5th, 2009

OMG HBP!! @ 06:37 pm

Current Mood: bouncy

I absolutely positively do NOT have time to make a post, but if you haven't seen it yet, you MUST go to YouTube and find the HBO Half-Blood Prince 'First Look' video. Especially Part Two. You really, seriously need to see Part Two.

(I'm in Montreal. I should be asleep, but I haven't started packing yet. My flight home leaves early in the morning. I've been at the Worldcon Planning Meeting, which has been a very productive and informative and very BUSY three days.)

February 23rd, 2009

Half-Blood Prince - Regal First Look @ 09:33 am

Current Mood: grateful

I was thrilled this morning to find on [info]hbpmoviepics a quality version of the Half-Blood Prince teaser that Regal Cinemas are playing between feature film showings. It's actually up on the MSN Video site, but for some reason the embedded version is working better for me. Now I don't have to pay the price of a movie ticket to get a good look at this thing!

February 8th, 2009

I'm lonely and don't have anyone else to blab at. @ 08:51 pm

Current Mood: Better
Current Music: Faeon playing WoW

I am so frickin' tired all of the time. I'm binge eating, but also spending a lot of time miserably nauseated. I'm having crying jags, and I can't lose any weight, and my muscles are all achy.

I never actually had the privilege of being pregnant (we adopted Faeon when he was 10 weeks old). I had to give up all the necessary equipment decades ago on threat of impending death, nothing short of drastic medical intervention could get me pregnant at this age even if I did have the right organs, and I haven't had the necessary interaction to conceive in a long, long, long time. But life being unfair, I still get all the symptoms.

Actually, I'm feeling a lot better tonight. I got in a good nap this afternoon before the dog decided he had to go out and the cats decided that, if the dog was being noisy, it must be dinner time.

You know, I have a lot of really, really great friends; good people whom I love, and who love me. The troublesome part is that virtually all of them live inside my computer. Normally this isn't a problem, but it would be nice now and then to have someone to go do stuff with. I mean, I wish there were occasional reasons to leave the house that didn't involve running errands or chauffeuring the girls.

For example, would anyone like to catch a plane to SeaTac so we can go see Coraline together? I've heard it's pretty good - how could it not be, considering that Mr. Gaiman is the book's author. Anyway, there's a Regal Theater just up the hill that is showing it, and right now between the feature presentations Regal Cinemas are showing a new 2.33 minute preview of Half-Blood Prince! You can tell from this that the thing is totally awesome. (Someone tell me if you find a version on line that you can actually see.)

Oh well. Faeon just got home. No, he would not go see Coraline no matter what I offered him, and from the sound of it he is already killing things in World of Warcraft, but at least I can find out how his first full day at the new job went. Besides, I want to tell him I found the little old lady in Wii's 'Animal Crossing - City Folk' who sells turnips. The trick is to buy them from her, then sell them to the store. The price you can get for turnips changes every day, though, and if you don't sell them within a week they rot. It's kinda like playing the stock market. Except in the Animal Crossing universe the economy isn't going down the toilet.

January 24th, 2009

Why do the Japanese get all the good stuff? @ 07:04 am

Current Mood: jealous
Current Music: We Built This City - Starship

This is the new Japanese trailer for Half Blood Prince. It's a lousy copy - Much of it is too dark to see properly, and the Japanese subtitles cover up so much. Not to mention that most of it is dubbed in Japanese. But it looks like an awesome trailer, and I'm thrilled at the scenes with Snape

I had to chuckle at Daniel doing the introduction. I don't know what was wrong, but he looks and sounds like some amateur who has never been on stage before! I get the feeling he had not had any practice with those lines, but was reading them straight off the monitor. And he looks so nervous. Maybe it was because he was concentrating on pronouncing the Japanese words. It strikes me as adorable, just because we know what he is capable of.

One of the comments to this says that this trailer is showing before Inkheart. I would love to know if that is true.

It's pathetic that I would consider going to the movie just to see the trailer.

As much as I am looking forward to this movie, I am also dreading it. With Snape no longer teaching potions, and then of course the ending... For me, HBP was the beginning of the end.

December 31st, 2008

HBP Pic @ 09:39 am

Current Mood: busy

New Photo of Snape from Half-Blood Prince )

I'm fascinated by the hand holding the wand.

For those of you who don't think Snape and Remus are the two main characters in the Harry Potter universe, there are more new photos from the movie here.

December 12th, 2008

Flora, the Whole Flora, and Nothing But the Flora!! @ 07:32 pm

Current Mood: excited

If you read fanfic, especially Harry Potter fics, you probably know or know of [info]florahart. I've rec'd her stories here, especially her Snarry, many times. She is a fantastic and incredibly talented author.

Well, now there is a Fics by Flora Archive!! [info]inell and [info]heather11483 created it -- Flora didn't know a thing about it!! And it's unbelievable - 1,033 Harry Potter Fics!! (Also over a hundred in other fandoms.) And you can sort them all sorts of ways... I seriously just looked up Snarry Adult Smut Fics, but I could have sorted for humorous poetry/limericks rated for teens.

You have to register on the website before you can leave reviews, so go do that! Now! Because if you appreciate [info]florahart's fan fiction, this archive is terrific for finding just what you want. And if you don't read Flora fic, go to the website anyway, because you are really missing out.

This is the Way I Live (on IJ)

There is a very fine line between "hobby" and "mental illness." - Dave Barry